it's my supposed-anniversary...
its my supposed-anniversary!
Post Date: Fri Jan 23, 11:09:39 PM
it's been one year since january 23 2003. i could still remember what had caused all this. but with no regrets i loved paolo.
i know there is no such thing as supposed-anniversary. it's my own way of saying that i still love you but let's just be friends.
i had an early dinner arrangement with paolo in glorietta. i was confused but on the other side of it, im also scared. i have known the guy too long that i know what he would do to situations like this - win the girl back!
from the moment we kissed each other this evening, i felt the chill. he was making "the moves" already. i couldn't stop him because i was missing those things. i have been craving those sweet embraces and ang mga "nakaw-halik". alam ko na ang mga gagawin niya... and after the dinner, he would ask me one last time and until he takes me home, he would tell me every reason why i should take him back... and he did all that... actually. he started early. during dinner, he asked me already then in the parking lot, in the car in our frontdoor. i just don't know what to do.
but a friend not just once told "hindi na pwede... wala ring mangyayari!" about how many times.. it was so obvious... but when i was with him it was really hard to say. but i did say it. the only thing he did when i said those words is hug me real tight. and kissed me a long kiss goodbye and hello to a new. my friend was right. it wasn't gonna work. it would onlky hurt us both if we continue in the relationship. it was horrible because i saw a teardrop. and knowing that i have hurt someone makes me want to kill myself. i just wish this would be over. the suffering would go away and i would be happy again...
i am not happy. i said no already but i am having doubts. if i havent' talked to my friend, i would said yes tonight. and i would be starting a new problem. getting back won't be a problem. but the letting go after some months would be harder than what i did - breaking up with my love.
love? is it really true. is there really true love? but why do i feel that true love failed me. it didn't give me all smiles and lughters. there are the ups and downs. the negatives and positive outcome in life.
just weird
why can't there be only:
good?
wonderful?
beautiful?
the best?
why do i keep asking?
why can't i wait for god's answer...
i know it will come.
its is just not the right time.
Post Date: Fri Jan 23, 11:09:39 PM
it's been one year since january 23 2003. i could still remember what had caused all this. but with no regrets i loved paolo.
i know there is no such thing as supposed-anniversary. it's my own way of saying that i still love you but let's just be friends.
i had an early dinner arrangement with paolo in glorietta. i was confused but on the other side of it, im also scared. i have known the guy too long that i know what he would do to situations like this - win the girl back!
from the moment we kissed each other this evening, i felt the chill. he was making "the moves" already. i couldn't stop him because i was missing those things. i have been craving those sweet embraces and ang mga "nakaw-halik". alam ko na ang mga gagawin niya... and after the dinner, he would ask me one last time and until he takes me home, he would tell me every reason why i should take him back... and he did all that... actually. he started early. during dinner, he asked me already then in the parking lot, in the car in our frontdoor. i just don't know what to do.
but a friend not just once told "hindi na pwede... wala ring mangyayari!" about how many times.. it was so obvious... but when i was with him it was really hard to say. but i did say it. the only thing he did when i said those words is hug me real tight. and kissed me a long kiss goodbye and hello to a new. my friend was right. it wasn't gonna work. it would onlky hurt us both if we continue in the relationship. it was horrible because i saw a teardrop. and knowing that i have hurt someone makes me want to kill myself. i just wish this would be over. the suffering would go away and i would be happy again...
i am not happy. i said no already but i am having doubts. if i havent' talked to my friend, i would said yes tonight. and i would be starting a new problem. getting back won't be a problem. but the letting go after some months would be harder than what i did - breaking up with my love.
love? is it really true. is there really true love? but why do i feel that true love failed me. it didn't give me all smiles and lughters. there are the ups and downs. the negatives and positive outcome in life.
just weird
why can't there be only:
good?
wonderful?
beautiful?
the best?
why do i keep asking?
why can't i wait for god's answer...
i know it will come.
its is just not the right time.
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