letting go of the one you love

its been a while. and for the past two weeks of being single. i have been drinking a lot. i have been drunk and have been seriously shattered into pieces.

how come it gets harder everyday to let go of the one you love?

when you really love someone, you really really love them and don't want to be away from them. pero the ahrdest aprt is letting go.

i tell yoU!

when cellphones became popular, we receive text messages that say "if you love someone... let them go"

how can you do that. you love the person. even if you only want happiness for him/her, you still deserve a little happiness. not to be selfish and all but, you also deserve something out of the relationship.

let's say in my relationship, why would i let him go if i love him. to check if we are really meant to be. that is all crap. i mean if you love someone, he/she is for keeps. you won't let them go. or else they may never come back. you don't try risking something you're not sure of.

isipin mo na lang. kung siya na nga ang tao para sa'yo hindi naman panigurado na magiging kayo. maaring magkaroon ng ibang tao at hindi kayo magkatuluyan. maging praktikal naman tayo dito. kung tutuusin, we are living in reality and it sucks talaga. na kung minsan, yung gusto mo napupunta pa sa iba kahit anong gawin mo.

we don't want that. it really hurts. diba? i speak for myself but i know everybody agrees with me in what i'm saying. kahit sabihin mo pa na kaya mo, masakita parin.

kilala mo naman kung sino ka. please lang. FEEL FREE!!! wala naman masama sa pag-iyak, sa pagmourn, sa kung ano pang gusto mong gawin. kahit magbalak ka pa magpakamatay. kahit anong gusto mo. pero limit yourself to thirty-six hours or whatever.

limit yourself? kasi the very same reason kasi kailangan you have to move on with your life. hindi naman forever magmumukmok ka na lang sa kanya. hindi naman pwede yun. kasi hindi ka na naman niya iniisip. hindi ka na niya inaalala. kaya bakit mo pa siya iisipin.?

mahal mo. pero may mahal siyang iba... in my case. mahal mo siya and mahal ka rin niya. pero mas priority niya ang school and family niya sayo. may kasabihan nga..., "blood is thiker than water". kahit ano pa ako sa buhay mo paolo, alam ko na mas mahal mo ang family mo. and i totally support you in your carreer. i wish you all the success.

i wish you all the best and happiness.

it was really hard to say this. pero kailangan ng closure. i have proven myself na history na ang lahat.

i am moving on.

i am going to live my life now.

i am going to start a new.

i am letting go of you.

but i am wishing that we will be friends forever.

because paolo, you have been the best guyfriend i have ever had.

i love you.

take care.