something im not happy of...
before summer starts i met this someone in a drinking session at there house with friends. as always i got so drunk i just couldn't remember a thing. that night was vaguely in mind and a video just remind of that night...
i dont know if i would laugh or cry because i guess something was just revealed out of me. and beacuse i was drunk... it was clearly there that... TOOT... i cant say it.. i just cant.
so the night starts as a drinking session at this guys house. it was a lot of tequila and a lot of mixed drinks...
i usually drink a lot and everybody i know knows that. and they say when they hear KAT PASTOR they associate it with alcohol. but really im not an alcoholic. so the night is young and i was still laughing and for like hours of drinking...
as a normal person reacts... i got drunk. so drunk i was talking gibberish already to this guy(two)... so two was talking to me intently but the video just cant hear what we were talking about. but two told me what i was saying.
after a lot of talking we came very close and i kissed him... I KISSED HIM. it was something i dont usually do but i did. so i was shocked and i felt kinda stupid. someone i dont know. i hardly know i saw i kissed... i was just out of words...
then i shouted something. something i just cant take i said...
after that night, two just couldn't stop contacting me. it was so irritating and actually annoying for me that time. i was reviewing for exams and i just cant concerntrate.
i was a good girl. so i gave him a chance. i met with him one day and we talked. we hanged out and he wasn't bad after all. we like the freakishly the same stuff and he was cool and cute and sweet.
one thing led to another and he was my summer fling. the deal was - when school starts its over.
it was fun... at night i would go out without my parents knowing and we would be cruising around manila and just talking. buring gas and not even eat out. we enjoyed talking to one another that we spend hours of just talking.
but it has to end. i couldn't have him and focus on my studies at the same time. i have to focus so to have good grades.
for quite sometime i had him beaten up by my friends for doing something i don't like. it was kinda foolish of me coz he got all those bruises but it was his fault.
i could say binastos niya ko so it goes on and he is so sweet... even if my friends beat him up, it was okay with him. he's okay with me being a complete lunatic. a weirdo and a bitch. i just couldn't tell him i love him. i do. but its not the time.
maybe someday when im ready. when the summer would be long and it would be sure to be forever.
im just sad that it's all over and i had to let him go.
i dont know if i would laugh or cry because i guess something was just revealed out of me. and beacuse i was drunk... it was clearly there that... TOOT... i cant say it.. i just cant.
so the night starts as a drinking session at this guys house. it was a lot of tequila and a lot of mixed drinks...
i usually drink a lot and everybody i know knows that. and they say when they hear KAT PASTOR they associate it with alcohol. but really im not an alcoholic. so the night is young and i was still laughing and for like hours of drinking...
as a normal person reacts... i got drunk. so drunk i was talking gibberish already to this guy(two)... so two was talking to me intently but the video just cant hear what we were talking about. but two told me what i was saying.
after a lot of talking we came very close and i kissed him... I KISSED HIM. it was something i dont usually do but i did. so i was shocked and i felt kinda stupid. someone i dont know. i hardly know i saw i kissed... i was just out of words...
then i shouted something. something i just cant take i said...
after that night, two just couldn't stop contacting me. it was so irritating and actually annoying for me that time. i was reviewing for exams and i just cant concerntrate.
i was a good girl. so i gave him a chance. i met with him one day and we talked. we hanged out and he wasn't bad after all. we like the freakishly the same stuff and he was cool and cute and sweet.
one thing led to another and he was my summer fling. the deal was - when school starts its over.
it was fun... at night i would go out without my parents knowing and we would be cruising around manila and just talking. buring gas and not even eat out. we enjoyed talking to one another that we spend hours of just talking.
but it has to end. i couldn't have him and focus on my studies at the same time. i have to focus so to have good grades.
for quite sometime i had him beaten up by my friends for doing something i don't like. it was kinda foolish of me coz he got all those bruises but it was his fault.
i could say binastos niya ko so it goes on and he is so sweet... even if my friends beat him up, it was okay with him. he's okay with me being a complete lunatic. a weirdo and a bitch. i just couldn't tell him i love him. i do. but its not the time.
maybe someday when im ready. when the summer would be long and it would be sure to be forever.
im just sad that it's all over and i had to let him go.
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