sobrang embarrassing

meron akong sobrang embarrassing moment na i-share to you guys... it just so happens na last wednesday night, i was getting drunk again with my ex at home. it just so happens that i drank three bottles of strong ice, the whole bottle of tequila and half a bottle of black label. it was too much for a weekday.

so i was in my usual state - drunk when all i culd remember was that i was whappaakkk!

the next day... well i was late again for my ENGLONE class.. i wish i won't fail the class because i'm not prompt. it's just that i thought it was an M-W-F sched, so i was calm as a fish, striding outside of DLSU when i realized i had a 9:40 class and i was 20 minutes late again.

i had to run as if i was being chased by a monster... it was just horrible. i'm always late. i can't afford to fail the class just because of that.

when our break came, my blockmates decided to eat at Munch. it's actually a miracle because they always like eating in Mcdo or KFC. when i was about to buy my usual thing in Agno, my crush saw me, and the first thing he told me was, "Senglots ka na naman(You were drunk again!)". he really looked pissed whilst saying this so was kind of shock how he knew. and so confused why he looked so angry.

so i asked him...

last night when i was drunk, nagonline daw ako. then i hatted with him daw and i started to say something stupid. the moment i message him, he knew na daw that i was drunk.

so i asked him what i was saying...

he didn't want to say anything. he told me that he ame across my ex. apologizing for my behavior. it's always like that.

i was really curious. and so embarrassed... and i know i do crazy stuff when i'm drunk.

when i'm drunk:
1. i get all noisy (something normal)
2. i easily get annoyed
3. i try annoying everybody
4. i don't stop talking
5. i say i love you to everybody and make this very stupid conversation that doesn't even make sense

these stuff... so iwas so scared bakit ano ang ginawa ko at parang galit siya sa kin?

i told jodie to ask him... and jodie texted me that she knows na daw. so ako naman sobrang curious... right after my class, i went to her room and asked what.

kachat ko nga daw yung crush ko... and i told him, "alam mo bang mahal kita". and those bullshit.

tangina!

i can't believe it. when you're drunk yout end to say the truth. bakit ko nasabi yun?

i really can't believe it. i didn't know how to face him ever. wala na talaga akong mukhang ihaharap sa kanya. okay pa sana kung nalaman niya na crush ko siya eh.. pero sabi ko kasi mahal ko siya... sobrang nakakahiya kaya yun...

sobrang panic ko...

ayun.. i didn't see him na that day. pero when i got home and connected my pc to the net, message niya kaagad ako. "laaaaaaaftrip daw ako last night".

i said sorry for like 20 minutes and tried to ask what the whole conversation consisted of. i mean... it doesn't just end there. i know it. i'm a sucker for long, annoying, nonsensical conversation when i'm drunk.

i couldn't believe it. it was okay with him. pero i'm kinda embarrassed na rin. kahit ano pang sabihin niya. iba pa rin yung nararamdaman ko. kahit nakakatawa nga naman talaga ng konti... eh nakakahiya pa rin. mas lalo na when people start teasing me na love ko na nga daw siya. eh i feel nothing of that sort pa naman. or do i?

ewan ko. ang labo...

pero when i saw my friend, reden. i immediately told him the whole story... and his reaction was... "tangina! ganun din yung ginawa mo sa kin kagabi. LASHENG!.."

*sigh*

relief! i can get out of the situation naman pala eh. hindi lang pala siiya yung sinabihan ko ng ganun eh... and tanga lang sinabi ko kay joel...

si joel yung "honey" ko... we've been together for six months na... hehehe. pinagkamalan kami ng dad ko eh... laughtrip yun. nung celebration ng birthday ko sa Grilla. basta...

hindi niya talaga ko titigilan... the moment na sinabi ko sa kanya yung story. i knew what i had coming. all the pang-aasar from him about *******. he keeps telling me what would happen between *******.

ahhhhhhhh!

emabarrassing...