don't diss me

that egocentric baffoon. why is he doing this to me? i wasn't the one caught cheating on the relationship.
i let the sex thing pass but the rumors he is spreading. i just can't take it.

i've been telling people not to hurt him or say anything bad about him. i've been arguing and protecting
him from any harm that the mind thinks of him. i know its not all true. even if i don't really know what
is true.

the rumor is not true. i can't believe he is doing this to get back at me. i know my friends, beating him up
is entirely wrong but spreading bad stuff about me. which is okay coz it's normal. but just make sure those words
are correct and is a fact.

i just hate it. coz i don't know who else knew about this. and it really shocked me that my friends from the
states knew about it. the worse part was, i found out from paolo. they knew and they're not here. i found out
last night and he already knew for a a month and he just wasn't able to call me up because i was very busy.

he's a total asshole who deserves to die. i would even be willing to pull the trigger against his big head. i just
can't believe he would the one to do such thing. i was really upset because his making me want to kill him more.
i'm not going to think twice of doing it. i don't want more people to find out. the rumor isn't true. if i was, i
would be honest enough to admit it. i wouldn't deny the fact because i don't like to lie. and doing that to me.
makes me think more about what really is the situation when we were together. was he playing around? was he fooling
around with everyone at my back? was i the only who was serious? did he use me to get to *toot*.

it's just hard to swallow all these at the same time. i've been making a fool out of myself. telling myself that i
have something true now. i can introduce this person to my cousins and be proud now of what i have. but then life
turned upside down. i am ashamed of what happened when i really shouldn't be.

that jerk told me i was the one who should be saying sorry for using the keys(he voluntarily gave me) to condo
without permission. i guess i can ask for forgiveness with what my friends have done to him. he has a broken arm
and i'm changing my mind of him deserving every inch of pain.

the pain he is feeling right now is not enough. it's not yet right for the way he treated me. how i was really
hurt of what i had seen that night in his condo. *toot* and him doin it hardcore is just the hardest thing i
could ever watch. the fact that he is the first who made it to the middle of second and third base. i've trusted
him so much and he is giving me this in return.

IM STILL A VIRGIN. we didn't do it yet. not even when we were in that pool. it was all kisses and cuddles. don't
believe him. he's a liar and he doesn't deserve to live no more.

those are not true. i'm not easy and i don't play around too. all of those who heard something. just shut those
pieholes and just watch.

watch out for those who spreads bad stuff about me. i don't care about spreading anything about me - good or bad.
just make sure those things are true or else you will pay to me. i'm quiet and i let everything pass. once you
cross the line. watch your back or you'll regret you ever stopped running and meesing with me.