why does it hurt so bad?

Who knows a lot about love.? Nobody knows really what love means. Everybody says this word but doesn’t really understand why or how, when, what, where?

I am really embarrassed for what happened. I really can’t say that I’m not the one to blame but I really am not.

I wouldn’t have expected any of this. I am really hurt with the person I thought I would be able to love me more. You can never really say who is true and who is not. With this experience I can’t really say anything. I’m embarrassed it has happened to me. My friends are telling me that I am the victim here. The suffering I’m feeling right now is not worth it.

I want to meet with him. My friends are telling me not to. But I want to know what really happened. I want to get it all clear. I know that there can never be us again. The truth will come out and I know I wont be able to like the truth. The truth will simply hurt me and break me into pieces.

I don’t want to cry. But I’m really starting to. My eyes are always weak. I know this would take a while. But I hope it will end very soon. I don’t like hiding. Hiding the tears. I don’t want anyone seeing me sad or anything. I don’t want anybody to know.

I’m keeping this to myself. I’m keeping it away. It will be between him and me.